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Ceremonies with Ayahuasca in Germany: Experiences of our participants

You want to know more about our ceremonies with the healing plant ayahuasca? In the testimonials of our former participants you will get an insight into what to expect during your retreat. We would be happy if you would also like to share your experience with ayahuasca.

Review by Marion (November 2021): “Cocoa and Ayahuasca Ceremony – a healing in the heart!”

I am a rather anxious, sensitive person. I have had no experience with substances in my life, hardly ever alcohol, no cigarettes, hardly any painkillers, etc. I was very worried about how I would tolerate this substance. Accordingly, I was very worried about how I would tolerate this substance. I would not necessarily describe myself as a spiritual person, but certainly as thoughtful and mindful of others and their needs/feelings.

My last 2-3 years were marked by illness in the family and I felt very exhausted and emotionally empty. The Corona period with its absolute isolation and no community at all had somehow finally knocked me over.

Especially the developments in 2021, where society is becoming more and more divided by the outside, makes me deeply sad. I had always felt pressure, worry, overwhelm and self-doubt rather than happiness and contentment before. There was always this underlying feeling of lack of closeness, too little love and my own lack of understanding why I am not grateful for all the many wonderful things in my life. I longed for relaxation and happiness.

I sought outside support and was able to find some answers and work through things in the last few years. However, I continued to feel trapped by the old patterns in everyday life. Then by chance (or not?) I became aware of Ayahuasca.

become aware of ayahuasca. A few weeks before, a friend had told me about a ceremony abroad. I listened intently, but a huge rational part of me would have liked to get up and leave immediately (not allowed in Germany, loss of control, etc.) But I am very happy and grateful that I am now more open and able to listen. It helped me that I had and still have great trust in this person.

At home, the subject somehow wouldn’t let me go. I looked on the internet and found out that there is another way. My everyday life doesn’t really allow me to organise a weekend for myself, but I asked my family and it was surprisingly unproblematic and so I simply signed up a few days later. In the meantime I realised that everything should be absolutely the same. I had been stuck in a kind of dead end and needed a change, answers to my inner questions.

What happened at the weekend is different from anything I had experienced before. A healing in much bigger steps. Catapulted into a new level. A healing in the heart. Far from healed, finished, satisfied, but definitely on my way as healing as nothing ever before. But I only see it that way in retrospect. You see things more clearly and with your heart.

The mind, which often gets lost in the same circular movements, moves into the background. On site, in the cocoa ceremony, I was able to make peace with a dark chapter of my youth and overcome a loss. It was a rather dark night, but healing. Still, I was irritated, as it is said that cocoa is calm and triggers gratitude. I was then correspondingly anxious before the next night with the plant. But I was determined to try it and face my fears. I would not get another opportunity so soon.

So I didn’t say that and just accepted the feeling. I accepted it, just as I accepted the confinement that I felt in the house all the time and that I found stifling.

But I felt that all this was meant to be for me and that I was already in the middle of the process. The following night was then very intense. I regretted for hours that I had come here. All I wanted was for it to finally stop. But actually only the physical experience was difficult. Inwardly, I saw bright, pleasant images full of love and happiness and wonderful nature journeys and the universe for hours. That surprised me. But I had already had my experiences the night before.

Still – physically it was a disaster, the images were too fast one after the other and I absolutely couldn’t enjoy them. I felt terribly dizzy and nauseous. The purging went on throughout the night and I felt infinitely weak until the next day even into the afternoon. But I received 1000% care. A huge thank you to Lorena, Mary, Christian and especially Joel! The experience with him brought me one step further and closer to myself.

I could write a lot more, but it is too difficult to capture in words anyway and probably hard for outsiders to understand. However, as I found other notes helpful myself, it was important for me to share my experiences as well Here are some more notes:

I can breathe more deeply since then. Not always, but often and it fills me with a deep joy every time. I now know what the term charity means and have actually felt it first hand through the wonderful group and the leadership.

Soul and physical care and closeness that I will never forget and still move me to tears when I write about it The eye to eye exercise in the garden was overwhelming, as was the music by Joel Eating so little all weekend was very unusual for me, but much easier than I thought The house has been too cramped for me at times, but through the wonderful community it was no problem for me I liked that there were fixed structures/schedules.

That was good for me. Great nature in the surrounding area. Now about 2 weeks later I am very much back in the daily routine, but it is still different than before. Better, more loving. And I can actually imagine that there will be a 2nd time.

Review by Alisa (November 2021): “Mama Ayahuasca called me – I answered – and magic has been happening ever since”

I had already had an Ayahuasca experience with the original recipe of the portion for 2×2 days before and I have to say in comparison to the retreat with the “Ayahuasca in Germany” team: I didn’t notice any difference, even though we had drunk the pure Syrian Rue.

The reason why I got the call was a loss in the close family that paralysed me for about 1 year: I had lost my intrinsic motivation for that time, I kept asking myself why I should do this and that, I hardly wanted to move my body and my goals had somehow become unimportant… until I got the impulse in my own Cacao Ceremony about 3 months ago to finally visit Mama Aya again. In my search I found the Christian & Mary team and wanted to give the recipe without added DMT a chance and see if the effect was comparable.

Even though the setting was different from what I was used to and you meet a larger group, it was all worth the experience. The additional exercises were interesting and we met more intensively afterwards, despite the short time we spent together. I was already very excited about the Aya ceremony, but was also allowed to write down and consolidate some important impulses during the Cacao night.

During my Aya night I was especially supported by Lorena (thank you for that, angel!) almost all the time, because I had an extremely hard process and Mama Aya showed me especially many different things and my purging was extremely exhausting (what came out of me was not food, but, as I say beautifully: fears, blockages, demons). The night was extremely hard, I was also one of only 2 participants who had come with a concrete and not very easy intention. I expected it to be no walk in the park.

After the Ceremony I had to recover for a week (I am self-employed online and fortunately can take the time), but then came the feeling of love, connectedness and also insights that I already knew before but didn’t FEEL. There was a difference between “knowing something” and “really understanding something” and especially on the subject of habits I realised how I had been lying to myself and I told myself I didn’t understand why results came and went: because I always stopped at some point with the good, new habits and the old thinking came back. It really wasn’t anything “new”, but only then did I understand that I was pretending not to understand why it came and went. I know that now and am actively changing my habits again because I am no longer in that victim role.

Also, as a result, the urge to clean out was greater again. And one of my guinea pigs died. I’m glad it went after the ceremony because I actually felt prepared and accompanied it into death (I sort of immediately put into practice my new skills in coping with loss), even though I used to like to run away from such situations when I was younger… the plant gave me my self-esteem that I had lost for 1 year when my family member died and I finally felt I can now pick up where I last left off.

Thank you to the Ayahuasca team in Germany for holding the space and thank you Mama Aya for the wonderful cleanse.

Review by Alina (November 2021): “The most challenging and beautiful thing I have done so far!”

I first encountered the plant ayahuasca in Brazil 2.5 years ago. At that time it fascinated me, but I didn’t dare. I was not ready! And then the opportunity came. I woke up one day this year and knew: “The plant is calling me. Ayahuasca knows I’m ready!” And so I booked the retreat. Without having read any testimonials, I set out and quickly realised that each participant of the retreat follows their own unique and individual path and therefore each experience with the plant is quite unique and special.

That is exactly what it was for me. It was special, indescribable, intense, challenging, difficult, liberating and above all beautiful. Today I go through life with much more ease and serenity, I meet myself and all my fellow human beings with more calmness and gentleness and love. I notice that I am on the path of forgiveness and it sets me free. From everything that no longer serves me and that simply no longer fits me! I feel more like myself.

I would love to recommend this experience to everyone, but ultimately everyone must and may decide for themselves whether they are ready for this transformation. Ayahuasca called me, but you also have to want to listen. Therefore, I can say for myself that ayahuasca came into my life at the perfect time. Each individual will know for themselves when and if the right time has come for them.

And the plant is calling me again. I know that this was not my last ceremony. There are still many more insights and experiences and liberations and shadows waiting for me. There is still much in me that needs to be seen and accepted. And Ayahuasca has opened my eyes and called me to discover myself. I still don’t know exactly who I am and why I am here after the first ceremony. But I am finding these answers within myself and Mama Aya is helping me to find these answers. Thank you thank you!!!

Review by Manuela (November 2021): “A milestone on the path of transformation”

Writing a review “about products” has always been easy for me, so the reader knows “good or bad”. a positive-negative list, done. It’s not that simple here. Who should come here, when, why? What does the addressee want to know?

Such a journey is always very subjective – so how is my assessment, experience to be understood? The retreat “triggered something in me”. Being there was an incredible sensory experience, an enrichment. I was able to feel my body, very strongly even perceive it. There was also so much happening in my mind, I felt my energy body when I resonated with other people or not – I felt other people’s blockages, I felt my own blockages (if you think of chakras/energy centres) – I was supported – when I went “deep” then finally a plant – but it was not just this one evening, I would like to emphasise that it is not like alcohol, it works as soon as you drink it – everything that took place on the retreat worked together in exactly the same sequence – so “everything did something to me”, ceremonial procedure, music, conversations, peace – and of course then also the ingestion of the brew.

The effect is very complex and is incredibly difficult to explain in mundane terms.

I had already come into contact with the issues that make up my innermost core (the questions of meaning, who am I, what can I do, what can I contribute to this world) before, for years I have been dealing with myself, as part of the whole (me as a professional, as a mother, as a volunteer, as part of society, as a democrat, as a free spirit, as a patient, as a healer, as a partner, as a sportswoman etc. etc.) and always the question of what is it that I can contribute to this world? etc.and always the question, what do I have to do so that I can help others, how can I change so that I myself feel better and others also feel joy…)

I came to the Ayahuasca retreat because there are “things” that “take place” so much in my subconscious that I had the impulse to “bring them out” – and I consciously did not want to discuss these topics in the “conventional system” (doctors, therapists, psychologists) because there everything is thought about with the head. We humans are more than just brain and bodily functions. That is my conviction and humans cannot explain everything, even if they would like to. Since I am also a head person, I thought, why don’t you switch it off and give in to “the feeling”, listen to “your inner self” and then see HOW it goes on, it always goes on…and that’s exactly how it was.

So what could make more sense than to use rites that were already used by people thousands of years ago. There was no conventional medicine back then

And so I went to the weekend with the impulse to “work through” my issues. As is well known, everyone has to “carry his or her own baggage”, in whatever form. Personally, I only hoped that the weekend would help me to confront my issues, or to see more clearly those issues that were already known to me, but nothing more.

Because it is clear to me that if I went to a conventional doctor, he wouldn’t be able to “make my ouch go away” straight away, or if I went to a psychotherapist, he wouldn’t necessarily prescribe me psychotropic drugs straight away and then my issues would disappear. Healing, “rediscovering lost soul parts”, becoming whole, transforming oneself, wanting to be a different person than one was yesterday, all this takes time and a lot of work is required. I knew that the retreat would probably not be able to do that, that I would go home on Sunday and yay, the ultimate human upgrade, like downloading software from the “next higher version”. We are human, not a machine. Everyone knows it…

That’s why I initially had “no expectations” of the retreat – especially as I first had to find a dosage of the Ayahuasca brew for myself that was compatible with my body, mind and soul. Everything works differently for each person. We are all unique. And so I embarked on the journey trying to be as open as possible to everything.

In short: the journey to the retreat was worthwhile for me in every respect and for me the journey did not “only” consist of the 3 days. The ceremonies, meditations, the meals together, time alone or with each other, the sharing at the end, the “pre/post care” and the own “post processing” (digesting, eliminating, internalising, solving etc.) days later, were very special for me, a great journey on the outside and on the inside.

During the Ayahuasca ceremony I had “only” physical effects, i.e. the cleansing of the body with the help of the plant took place for me mainly through excretion. Despite strong nausea and circulatory fluctuations, cold sweat, I could not vomit. The assumption is that my body was signalling to me, “I am here for you, help you to detoxify”, 2 years ago I had a serious emergency/bowel operation, I had a clinic trauma, pain, fears that I would remain incontinent at the age of 40. My body was “not reliable” at that time I was incredibly afraid of my own body because it did not “obey”. In the retreat I first had the fear again of whether my body would let me down again, to what extent I could rely on it, but after taking Ayahuasca I had no choice mentally, I had to “surrender”, had to entrust myself to the universe, as they say, and so I did this in the hope that everything had its meaning for me. I knew there were people there who would help me.

And so I can say: the care of the team was one of the most essential building blocks of the retreat for me. It’s about THE WHOLE – the plant is one thing and it is the most essential thing about the retreat. But everything around it is part of it.

In order to feel good all around, to be able to open up mentally, it requires the greatest possible sensitivity on the part of those involved. This attentiveness, I say it consciously, this “unconditional love” of the team, I could feel it! In my heart, in my soul, energetically. I can confirm this 300% – I can’t prove anything scientifically. But I don’t need to. The feeling of being loved, of having people around me who are interested in my healing, in my physical well-being, and who actively promote this, that is the meaning of life for me. THANK YOU for that!

There could not have been a better team for me from the beginning to the end of the journey. In my “hardest hours” a special “(protective) angel” was also there for me. I blindly relied on everyone and on myself. I was held and also held myself. This journey “gave” me an incredible amount of strength and self-love. Even now I shudder when I think back. I want to continue participating in cacao ceremonies and Ayahuasca will be a topic for me again. There is “no plan” here. When it is time, I will participate again.

Thank you to all team members! My heart is “replenished” – I am working on my issues, lovingly and patiently.

ps, out of carelessness/sloppiness I did not follow your diet recommendations to be careful with myself after the retreat. So I drank many cups of coffee and ate sweets again, these are old habits. I don’t do that any more. My body also gave me appropriate signals that it did not agree! 🙂

Review by Ines (October 2021): “The most blatant, courageous and intense thing I have done so far.”

Good morning, dear Christian,

I just had the impulse to write my report:

My experience report with ayahuasca – “the most blatant, courageous and intense thing I have done so far.”

My experience with ayahuasca started even before the actual retreat. Namely in the form that the plant called me.

I became aware of ayahuasca in June/July. I told my best friend about it and she said, yes, she knows it, the plant comes from Peru.

I felt that I wanted Ayahuasca this year and didn’t want to fly to Peru for it.

So, without knowing what it actually is and what it does to me, I googled whether it was also available in Germany. That’s how I found out about Christian’s retreat.

I didn’t find out, but looked up when it was taking place: 01.-03.10.2021, and immediately put it in my iPhone calendar without booking.

Then I forgot about it.

Then 3 weeks before the retreat I noticed that I had put it in my calendar.

Then I made a commitment to myself: “If there is still a place available 3 weeks before the retreat, then I will book it”.

No sooner said than done – I booked it…at that point I didn’t know what to expect either.

Until I told my other best friend about it, who then googled it and told me roughly what to expect.

I thought: “Yes, it’ll be fine, I was called by the plant. So I’m going to do it.”

We were then all put into a Telegram group so that we could get to know each other in advance (about 20 participants)…that was very good.

At the same time I took this as an opportunity to have a look at what to expect at the retreat and read through the schedule of the retreat…afterwards I just thought “Shit, what am I doing there?”…Ayahuasca in the middle of the night; so little to eat; oh dear and the testimonials…have I actually lost my mind to sign up there?!”…these were thoughts that came up for me. Anyway: I was called by the plant.

So I went there.

The arrival was inviting and you could already feel the special energy in the house.

It was clear to me from the start that if I did this, it would be a complete Social Detox. So I put my mobile phone in flight mode on arrival and only took it out of the locker again on Sunday afternoon shortly before departure; that was the BEST decision and I can only recommend it to everyone (beforehand, of course, inform all social contacts so that they don’t worry).

So then I was there and we were all supposed to say our intention, why we were here.

For me it was relatively short: “I was called and I want to go further, create more miracles in the lives of kids and teens and in my own life.”

(Note: I am a children’s and learning coach; where by “learning” I mean lifelong learning; beyond school).

Then was the cocoa ceremony; cocoa was delicious; ceremony I know nothing; I fell asleep. 😃

(Note: I stayed in the ceremony room and it was great; again, total comfort zone expansion because I and mattress camp; this used to be on children’s birthdays but not at 33 – but again, I highly recommend this to everyone; the mattresses and blankets and pillows are super comfortable).

Next day; preparation Ayahuasca…and from then on I was already getting nervous.

Especially as I then knew that the aim of the plant was for me to throw up. (I last threw up when I was a kid; not since because I find it gross to the max).

I thought, “Yes, I can manifest that I don’t throw up.”

At the same time, the plant only really has a deep effect apparently when you throw somehow I wanted to take the deep cleanse with it….

Anyway, the situation on Saturday evening (right before the ceremony) was awkward: normally I don’t prepare myself for throwing up on Saturday evenings…and the conversations I have aren’t about that either 😃 well…at the same time the conversations with individuals helped me of them said to me: “Let’s let our old life die now and give birth to ourselves anew, and you can do it.”

And then it came to me, “I had written down in June/July, “To live my new life, I have to let go of my old life.”” MAGIC

All right, I got involved in the process…I took 1 drink, 2 drinks…didn’t notice anything…then on the 3rd drink I noticed a bit…another took a 4th drink and that’s when I noticed in my body, no I don’t need that.

Then everything started to turn around (like in the past after a carnival party, when you’ve had a bit too much to drink). Then I got the impulse: “Your vibration is being raised and you are being realigned”…and somehow also that of other people…at least that’s what I felt…I thought: “Great, it works without throwing up.” Well, thought wrong….then it started…and it was awful. All I wanted to do was die. I felt weaker than I’ve ever felt in my life. And I can’t express in words HOW THANKFUL I am to Christian and the whole team for accompanying me through the process.

What helped me: “I came to stay. I have a purpose here on this planet. The energy of my friends who knew what I was doing and I felt that they were thinking of me. I was called by this plant. It’s a healing plant, which means it only shows me that and only takes me as far as I can take it.”

What was also crass was: one song in particular I liked “Cuatro Vientos” and a week after the retreat I realise I had that in my Spotify playlist and already knew the plant does its work beforehand too. The rest of the music really annoyed me in parts…but that is also part of the process…finding the music unpleasant….

My actual process started relatively late in terms of time. Others threw up 20 minutes after the first drink. In my case, I was told on Sunday, it was 4 am.

According to this, I was super weak on Sunday. I was angry at myself because I thought, “When is this going to stop. Why did I even do this?!” and I was also scared that it wouldn’t stop at all….

That’s why I only noticed the sharing on the sidelines.

I had to go out several times…Christian’s words helped me a lot: “Ines, it was the same with me and now I’ve started a retreat with it.” Joel just said, “Ines, you are very strong, give your body time and trust.” I did that and at some point I just cried..and that was so cleansing and healing…not convulsive. The tears just flowed and it was wonderful…and I was held through it by wonderful people.

And so special thanks also go to: Two wonderful men who held me and carried me through the process (the night before, on Sunday and even still on the train).

And my 2 friends who I met here and who also carried and held me through the process and with whom I am still in almost daily exchange. 😊

I travelled there and back by train. I could not have driven on Sunday. If I had driven, I would have stayed an extra night (I was also asked this by Christian and the whole team). Then I realised that I had come to the right place – here, pre- and after-care are part of the programme…and even now we are in regular exchange…sometimes the plant doesn’t take effect until much later and months later there are still insights.

On Sunday evening I ate something for the first time in Stuttgart (before that I didn’t want to and couldn’t eat anything): butter pretzels, doughnuts and chocolate donuts. It felt good and I kept it inside me.

I thought to myself that if I felt like it, it would be good (it was like that when I was a child, too, when I was unwell).

My decision on Sunday evening: “Ok, I was brave, I let go, but as bad as I felt – NEVER AGAIN Ayahuasca! I hadn’t noticed any of the energy of the new birth.

To the one friend I said: “Ok, if that’s what it took for us to get to know each other (it felt like we’ve known each other forever), at least it had that meaning.”

I took Monday off and I can only recommend that to everyone, because the plant still has an effect there…and even days later…but here it is especially intense.

On Monday morning I still felt weak…and at the same time as safe, stable and open as never before. As if I had broken open a cage around me.

It was just MAGICAL and now 2 weeks after the retreat: IT IS INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL!

I feel better than I have ever felt in my life! I have more energy…everything is bubbling through me. I’m experiencing life more intensely…and to be honest: I was already doing really great before – but this is next level! 😊

I would never have thought it possible to feel such fulfilment and so much love for myself.

So all in all, it was the most crass, intense and crazy experience I’ve had. At the same time, I am grateful that this plant called me, because I met wonderful people and I probably catapulted myself as far forward as I might have done without the plant – but not as quickly and intensively.

Can I recommend ayahuasca to others?: Everyone must and may decide that for themselves. In my case, I couldn’t help but go there; ayahuasca was calling me. So I can say that ayahuasca came into my life at the perfect time with the perfect people.

Can I recommend the retreat: From the bottom of my heart – YES!

Would I do it again?: I can’t say yet because I feel the plant is still working or it made me work without it. Let’s see.

I would definitely be more open to it than on the Sunday after the retreat.

Review by Pun (August 2021): “In the last weekend of August 2021 I did the Ayahuasca retreat. It is an experience that I never forget.”

At the night of the ceremony, after drinking the 1st glass, there was no effect. But the taste was so similar to the Chinese medicine that I drank when I was a kid. After 1.5 hours, I had the 2nd glass. After the 2nd glass, I felt the body temperature was a bit higher, but still no effect. So I had the 3rd glass, and then everything came.

I kept vomiting heavily, and started to see all the repressed childhood memories. Some were very good memories, how I was loved and cared. Some were bad memories, shame, fear, abused by my mentally-illed mother (who killed herself in 2004). It seems to me that Ayahuasca has consciousness, she wanted to clean my soul and my body and wanted to take out all the pain (from my developmental trauma) as much as possible. I felt a lot of physical and emotional pain during the vomitting, she told me that I needed to go through all these processes. After some time, the last memories that surfaced up – I saw myself in the womb of my mother, I felt so much safe and secure there. At that moment I knew I was born to be loved, not born to be hatred. After 1-2 mintues staying there, I was taken to a spiritual dimension, where before I was conceived. I saw God there, I had a conservation with God, about why I come to this life and suffer so much. I was crying. For me the whole process was close to near death experience.

I also had strong visions. I heard the music of Björk was playing outside the ceremony room. At first I thought everybody heard it, but turned out it was only me. It is this music: “all is full of love”-

The effect on me was super strong, the ceremony started at 9pm, and I kept vomitting till 5am. I still could not walk stablely the next morning. While all the other participants “returned to normal” more or less after 2am. I think the effect is proportional to the degree of my trauma. I lost 1-2 kg overnight. I am also deeply grateful to the team members Mary and Leire, who were sitting next to me all the time taking care of me, so that I could survive through the whole experience.

After everything is finished, I feel more connection to unconditional love and more come to peace where I am. My chilhood overall actually was not extremely bad as I remember from now. I start asking less “why me?” but more focusing what can I do the best in my healing journey. I would like to this retreat again next year.

Review by Anja (September 2021): “One of the most beautiful weekends”.

I am still raving about the weekend, which was so fulfilling from start to finish. For me it was already great and special to meet so many loving and honest people. But the whole experience made it perfect. The house had a very good aura for me, it felt like coming home after a very short time.

The cocoa ceremony activated and opened my heart even more, and I also liked it very much. The first evening was very pleasant to “come down” and to ground myself. I was already a bit excited, but afterwards I was completely in my center.

The next evening was the Aya ceremony. It was really mystical, but I felt very safe and secure. If there were any questions or requests for help, Mary and Christian were there immediately. The really breathtaking music of Joel is almost more important than the plant, that was my impression. Again, you can feel exactly what he is doing and I felt well taken care of. I can only recommend it to anyone who still doubts. I found it very rewarding.

Personally, I didn’t have a vision or anything like that on that day, but so much changes after the weekend. Doors are opening, views and feelings are solidifying. I have the impression that I am standing more firmly in life now than before the ceremony.

I am very grateful to all (also to all participants), I can already say that it has changed my life. How nice that I was able to meet all of you :-*️

Review from Marco (August 2021): “The plant knows what you need”.

Let go of all expectations. It will be different than you think anyway, it will be deeper, bigger, more confrontational than you can imagine – if you could imagine it, you wouldn’t need the experience.

For me, it was more enlightening and lasting than I thought possible: the cocoa the first night made me fly, the ayahuasca the second night made me crash (in a good way, which I desperately needed). It was an experience that taught me humility and surrender, and it was exactly the experience I needed to understand what it means to let go of ego, to let go of all control, to surrender fully, and to love without resistance life as it really is – in constant flux and benevolently. The plant(s) showed me the faces of my fears that I don’t deal with enough, showed me my weaknesses (including control addiction, childish strong ego, lack of trust in people/the universe). So I think the plant gives everyone exactly the experience he/she needs right now.

However, the most important part of the weekend was the people, some you will have contact with for a long time. Meeting these people showed me that this spiritual path is worth walking, hardly else have I had such interesting conversations with so many different people in such a short time, learned so much about myself and being human. And I also realized that I don’t need to worry too much about which parts or people of my other everyday life I might have to let go.

Thank you Christian, Mary, Lorena, Joel.️

Review by Giorgo (August 2021): “Getting to my core”.

Like the virgin to the child, I came to the Ayahuasca Retreat. About a trauma documentary. General insight 2 minutes.

I didn’t know anything. Had no expectations. Only driven by my purpose in life, to free myself from all my limitations, belief patterns and imprints and to penetrate to the core of my being. And I can already say that this journey was worth it.

It was not a journey as I imagine when I hear the word “journey”. In my head were images of gentle meditation accompanied by angelic music and visual travel. But it was different! For me, it was anything but gentle. Connected with physical and mental pain that lasted for what felt like an eternity.

But in the end it was really worth it. This journey actually led me to my core. There I was able to experience some things physically and emotionally. This journey opened me up, softened me. Opened my heart. I cried a lot. Yes, I even cry afterwards in my everyday life. This experience was definitely worth it. If you want to go on a journey to your inner self, Ayahuasca is the right place for you.

And if you want a familiar environment for it, with people who care about you, then you are exactly right with Christian and Mary.

I wish you a deep journey and many insights as well.

Thank you Christian, thank you Mary, Lorena and Joel.

Review from Andrea (August 2021): “The ceremony was for me an insight into my deepest inner self”.

I don’t even know where to start….

I met so many dear souls and was able to be fully myself the whole weekend.

The Ayahuasca ceremony was a total confrontation with my own darkness for me. I was allowed to feel and allow feelings that I had always denied myself. Most of the time in my life I felt myself guilty and weak with regard to the situations in which my physical and emotional boundaries were crossed. I was allowed to learn in the ceremony that my inner child suffers so much not only because of the people who hurt and abused me. No, it is I myself who inflict so much suffering on my inner child. I myself commanded my inner child to keep swallowing down. During my journey, my inner child screamed at me and was so endlessly angry. I felt all the anger, at myself and others, that I had never allowed myself to feel. My inner child literally had to stop swallowing. I felt Joel’s presence the whole time. Having him with me during this journey was infinitely helpful. When I woke up later that night, I couldn’t help but cry. I was so proud of myself and so grateful to have felt these suppressed intense and heavy emotions. My inner child finally had a voice again.

I also think about the sharing the day after often. It was healing in every way.

Thank you <3️

Review by Isabelle (July 2021): “Letting go”.

I can hardly put my gratitude and happiness into words. There has been a transformation in me and then in my outside since the weekend that I would never have seen or expected. I love my (life) journey again, with all the ups and downs – and was able to find a balance between what my shadow took and what my light can give.

I am so grateful to you all. This feeling is so beautiful. More of it! More letting go, more happiness, cohesion, synchronicity, transformation, healing, forgiveness, relief and love!

Thank you and lots of hugs️

Testimonial from Vero (July 2021): “So much love and positive energy ❤️”

Before I started my journey here, I wanted to listen to my body and soul to see if I was also 100% ready for this new adventure. I received so many signs that I realized the timing was just right for this ceremony.

The days with the whole team and everyone else were indescribably beautiful. Already at the beginning one could feel such a strong, loving and positive energy that I was already very touched. Even after the whole experience with the plant, I feel that we are all so much more connected to each other and we are all one.

Also, right a few days after the ceremony, I received infinite signs from the universe that put me on the right path. So many great things have been happening since then! I don’t think an outsider would believe all the miracles that are happening to me. I am so infinitely grateful! Feel very much pressed all of you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

I would be very happy to see all the wonderful souls again one day. ☀️

Review from Erhan (June 2021): For me it was a transformation process.

The strain and tension of the complete week eased when I turned right into the cattle drift and saw the retreat house. It was my second arrival there. 5 weeks earlier I had entered the house with mixed feelings and left with even more mixed ones that Sunday. Now it was a pleasant, almost familiar feeling to walk through the door and see familiar faces. Even though I hadn’t seen or heard from Aneta, Christian, Mary, Joel, Hans us Patrick for 5 weeks, it filled my heart with warmth to see and hug them. I could perceive with all my senses that they felt the same.

Old habits

After putting the bags in the lockers, I “reserved” my mattress in the ceremony room. In the back on the left. Same as last time. For a few seconds I stopped in front of the mattress. Looked at it. Knowing the flow of the weekend from the retreat before, it was not just an ordinary mattress to me. It was a ship waiting for its captain to set sail into a vast, uncertain ocean. When you step on that ship and release the anchor, it will float you through a sea of emotions. I knew that. “On this ship you will feel, suffer, laugh, cry, descend to rise again and ascend to land full force on the bottom of the facts,” I thought to myself.

The meeting

In time, almost all the participants had arrived and there was time to chat with some in the garden. The weather cooperated throughout the weekend. The glow and warmth of the sun, in retrospect, reflected the entire weekend with all its participants.
Afterwards, everyone went indoors for the first joint mediation and get-to-know-you session. You could read the tension in many people’s faces. The thoughts that came up in me as I stood in front of my mattress, almost everyone had at that moment. “Setting out into an ocean with the uncertainty of what to expect.” I knew that. I saw that, and I felt that. The shared guided mediation was again very intense (The eye of the storm). In those minutes, neither time nor space existed. I was alone. No one was in the room. Only me. This was the first “coming down” after an exhausting week.
After the participants slowly opened their eyes and came to themselves, everyone radiated a pleasant relaxation. The organizers (I’m deliberately not mentioning a name, as I don’t know whose idea this was) placed this first meditation very well, as for me it is/was the basis of the whole weekend.

First impressions and inspirations

In the getting-to-know-you session, everyone told a few sentences about themselves. Who you are, where you come from, what is your intention for the weekend and what is your greatest joy in life. For me, getting-to-know-you rounds are generally very interesting. In this case, there were more than two dozen complete strangers sitting in a round and ready to open up. Each one is a book with such an individual story that doesn’t exist a second time, and this book opens up and reads a few lines, maybe a small paragraph from itself. You get a tiny little glimpse into someone else’s deep world. After the round was over, one thing became clear to me: nothing mattered here. No age, no gender, no skin color, no nationality, no language. There were no material bodies sitting together here. These were all souls on a quest. Each soul has its own path and each path raises its own questions.
In this meeting I received my first inspirations and lessons, some of which I want to and will integrate into my life. Thank you Gülay.

Cocoa ceremony

In the evening we gathered in the ceremony room, where everyone made themselves comfortable in their previously reserved seat. Joel had already set up his instruments and made them available. Hans (in luck) sat, like the last time also, to Joel’s right. It was an indescribable feeling then to watch him get into a state of flow in tune with the music. The music became Hans and Hans became the music. It was a sight I looked forward to seeing.

Aneta and Mary poured the cocoa and each participant was able to pick up their cup. The cocoa was ceremonially given and received in full gratitude to the plant. After a few moments of silence and introspection, we all drank the bitter, unusual tasting drink together. I knew the taste from the last time. Never before had I drunk pure, high-dose cocoa. The taste buds were accustomed to the version pumped full of industrial sugar, which, as Christian put it so nicely, is stretched with industrial milk. This taste was the taste of purity. A purity that I did not know in this form in my everyday life. I tried to give each sip of the drink my full attention and awareness. With each sip, I imagined how the bitter taste was transmitted to the brain via the sensory cells of the taste buds in the form of a signal, and how the brain decoded that signal and told me that there was something bitter dancing on the back of my tongue just now. It became philosophical. Who was I? Who was perceiving the taste? Could my soul taste? What was taste? What was the role of the mind that fed on my experiences? Did taste really exist? What is existence? What was the function of existence when it came to neurotransmitters triggering electrical impulses, causing nerve cells to tell the brain what something tasted like? Such thoughts and others circled through my head until Joel’s music picked me up. I call it music because I know no other word that could describe what this man conjures with his instruments. In Turkish, music = müzik. There is also the word ezgi. This means something like: a series of notes that is subject to certain rules and produces a pleasant sound in the ear. Then there is the word nağme = a beautiful and harmonious sound. All of this describes Joel’s music. Hans had a very interesting approach when he said, “First there is a feeling, a thought. This feeling creates a sound. Several sounds create a melody. The melody fades away, the emotion remains.” To this I say, “It wasn’t Joel’s music we were listening to. It was Joel’s soul that spoke to us”.

The preparation

The next morning I woke up around 9 a.m. I had slept for 5 hours straight. Uninterrupted. That was unusual. I felt good.
For breakfast, I had oatmeal. With enough cinnamon and various kinds of syrup, you can even get that down pretty well.
Well rested and well strengthened, I spent the free time in the garden in the best sunshine. Some made themselves comfortable on the sun loungers, others sat in a relaxed round with a cup of tea in the furnished seating areas and chatted, some meditated, others did yoga or just lay on the grass to let the warm sun rays penetrate the cells. Not everyone was in the garden. I suspected that some had gone to the nearby forest for a walk. I had done the same the last time. It was not possible to sit in the garden during the May retreat. It was wet and cool.

I sat with my face to the sun, had my legs stretched out, drank my yogi tea and was engrossed in profound lines by Eckhart Tolle. At some point Hans came up to me. With his kindly striking gaze, he looked at me and asked, “Why are you so energized?”
The conversation that followed this introduction was more profound than Tolle’s thoughts. Hans is someone you can open up to. A friend, a father, an uncle, a mentor. His way of listening, interpreting and evaluating things objectively is unique. He gave me the opportunity to look at things from a completely different perspective through this conversation. It made sense. It was so simple. I read many books, attended many seminars. This conversation enriched me more than all the books and seminars combined.  Hans radiates enormous calm and strength. His life experience is reflected in his eloquence and calm nature. He is a Dieter Lange type. It fills me with gratitude to have met such a person.

The Eye-Challenge

After a short meditation round in the garden, in which all participants formed a circle hand in hand, the Eye-Challenge started. This was an exercise in which participants had to look each other in the eyes for two minutes without interruption. 22 participants. Everyone against everyone. Over 40 minutes of eye contact. Tough stuff.
This challenge was already one of the highlights of the whole weekend at my first retreat. It was going to be the same this time.
In conversations, people look you in the eye. In psychology, one talks about insecurity when a person cannot look another person directly in the eye during a conversation and averts his or her gaze.
This was different. It was not a conversation, not a dialogue, not a “look me in the eye little one”. It was a cosmic connection of two souls. Not for nothing they say that the eyes are the mirror of the soul. Let’s face it. When do 2 people consciously look into each other’s eyes intensively for 2 minutes in everyday life.
The challenge was very difficult for some participants. Both in May and now there were some who had to break off.
I found this exercise to be very intense this time as well. As in May, I also saw myself in many eyes this time. In part, I saw my own features in the faces of others and realized how similar everyone was.
I don’t consider myself a sensitive person, but during this exercise I felt I could see into people’s souls. I felt power, love, insecurity, fear. Some had a tremendous vibration that showed clearly before my eyes.
Some had tears flowing. Mine too…as I looked into the eyes of my niece, who was 18 when she attended this retreat. We had spent so much time together. She grew up in my arms. We talked for hours about the most mundane yet profound topics: Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle, quantum entanglement, laws in the subatomic world, art, culture, music, family, friends, the infinite depths of the microcosm and macrocosm, the meaning and nonsense of life, and much more. But at that moment, looking into her eyes, I realized something. Something I had not been able to see in the last 18 years. Then I burst into tears. I don’t know the last time I cried like that.
I have to admit, after it was over, I felt flat and drained.

EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique).

After eating together, we gathered again in the ceremony room and Aneta showed us the principles of the tapping technique (EFT). I advise everyone to look into this subject. I had my first experience with EFT in 2016 with a coach from Wiesbaden. Even though it seemed like humbug to me at the beginning, I realized quite quickly the depth effect of this incredible method. In principle, it is about the fact that blockages can occur in the flow of life energy (Chi). This life energy flows through pathways called meridians. In TCM it is said that diseases, fears and negative beliefs are triggered by these blockages.
Aneta showed us with her unique calm way how to implement this technique.


After a two-hour rest period, the time had come. Everyone excitedly took their place on the ship… the mattress. The medicine, which had been cooked and prepared for most of the day, was bottled and sitting on the floor in front of Joel’s seat. After a brief introduction and answering a few questions, it was time for everyone to pick up their “portion.” You could feel the tension in the candlelit room. As with the cocoa, I was the first to get my medicine. There was no particular reason for this. We had merely started at the back left.

Everyone held his filled glass in his hand and inwardly spoke out for himself his gratitude to the Spirit of the plant, to God, to the Universe, to the ONE all-encompassing. I recited inwardly the Sura an-Nas from the Koran. An incredibly powerful sura that is about praying for protection: Protection from the Jinn (negative frequencies), protection from people, protection from your own ego. It was very quiet in the ceremony room. Christian gave the go and everyone drank the medicine. Some sipped it, others drank it in one gulp. It tasted bitter. But that didn’t matter. The point was not for the taste receptors to tango, but for the soul. After that, everyone took the most comfortable position for themselves. Lying down, sitting cross-legged, legs outstretched or hiding under the covers.

Joel began to play. He produced a wide variety of tones, sounds and frequencies on a wide variety of instruments. At times I felt as if the frequencies were piercing me, penetrating me, joining me inside and tearing me apart at the same time. Throughout the night he had the tempo so much under control that I was sure that this man knew exactly when to use which sounds, which music, which instrument in which intensity. A highlight this time was also the sound of the sea. It was very intense.

After some time, the first participants could be heard beginning to vomit into the buckets that had been set up earlier. Their process had begun.
The first hour I tried to turn off my mind and surrender only to the Spirit and the music. Turning off the mind…, don’t make me laugh. I was not that far yet. There is a saying in Turkish. It’s used when your head is constantly in thought. They say that there are 40 foxes buzzing around in that head, their tails not touching. But one thing I had managed to do, unlike the previous session, was to be free of expectations.

At the retreat in May, nausea also overcame me after some time. There was something inside me that desperately wanted to get out. I fought it for a long time at that time. That prevented me from really getting into the process. At some point, it didn’t work anymore. However, my ego was too proud to throw up in front of everyone. So, on shaky legs, I went to the bathroom. There the cleansing was accomplished. This time I was determined not to hold it back. I was ready to accept it. After about an hour, I noticed that my stomach was turning. Almost at the same time, Christian called for the second round. For those who wanted to. I went for my second glass. Last time I had drunk 2 and 3/4 glasses. This time I barely managed to drink 1/4 from the second glass. It was no longer going down. It just wouldn’t go down. It was ok for me. It was meant to be. I accepted it. A short time later, I could no longer hold back the nausea. Again, my ego was too strong and whispered to me that I couldn’t throw up in front of all those people. So I staggered to the bathroom again. It took me quite a long time to get back to the ceremony room and finally attend to my process.

It started with me being in the weightlessness of the universe. It was not falling. Because falling means to fall from the actual perspective into the depth. In the universe there is no below and no above. Therefore I would call it “gliding through the stars”.
Suddenly I saw faces. Hundreds, maybe thousands. None of the faces I knew. Some I looked at from the objective perspective, some were immediately with me but looked away, some looked at me. One face merged into another and literally transformed in my mind’s eye. Then I saw myself. I looked myself in the face. Into my present one, then my youthful one, then again the present one.

Some acquaintances had told me about their ayahuasca experiences. I could never understand what they meant by “seeing” or “seen”. Was it like in a lucid dream? Some things cannot be explained. Some things you have to live. Can you describe the feeling of hunger to a person who has never starved in his life? The listener will at most answer that he can imagine it. But in order to understand and feel hunger, one must starve. It was the same with “seeing”. I am now able to understand what “seeing” means. I have experienced it myself. I have seen it myself. And I am not able to describe it to someone who has not seen it himself.
The next thing I knew, a koala appeared on the horizon. This is what I found about the koala after the fact:
“The frequently sleeping koala points us to take a rest and draw new strength from stillness. The power animal koala teaches us deceleration, serenity and tranquility.
The koala wants to bring calmness into your life.
“Don’t let others or yourself upset you.”
The koala also tells you that some things can take care of themselves while you sleep. Too many thoughts and too many actions – or perfectionism – often don’t make things better.
Come down – or in this case: climb up to the koala – and make time for things that are good for YOU.
Do them consciously. Be fully present. Pay attention to your senses. Do one thing at a time: “One thing at a time”.
Keep focusing on what you hear and what you smell. Engage with your senses.”
Interestingly, Hans spent the afternoon in the garden telling me exactly these things. There was no mention of a koala there, though. This is the power of the plant. I was overwhelmed.

At some point I opened my eyes briefly, looked to my niece’s left. She was not there. A few minutes passed. She did not come. I was worried and couldn’t get back into my process. I went to check on her. In the hallway I met Mary and Aneta. They told me that my niece was downstairs in the bathroom and didn’t want anyone with her. I went to see her. She was going through her cleaning. She was exhausted. At that moment, I came to abruptly. My wobbly legs suddenly felt like solid pillars. One thing became clear to me: “Your process is over for today”.
I spent the next few hours with her. For a while, Gülay was there to support me. I felt for my niece and at the same time was so proud of her that she, at the age of 18, had summoned up the courage to take this path. I was with her until 4 in the morning to take her to the bathroom and get her water. I was glad that she eventually fell asleep. I was floored. I couldn’t keep my eyes open.


Compared to last time, I felt very vital and alive the next morning. After the last breakfast together, everyone met again in the ceremonial room for sharing. I felt the sharing of each participant was very individual. No two experiences were the same. For some, you could hear the disappointment because they had not “seen” anything. Others found questions about answers that they had carried in themselves for years. Still others had many and profound visions.

Ayahuasca gives you exactly what you need in the present phase of your life and in this moment. If you surrender, so be it. If you see nothing, so be it. Ayahuasca is not a household initiative. It is not something you “take once” in hopes of reaching enlightenment. It’s not something you try once out of curiosity to have a say. Everything is a process. Once you start on the path of transformation, it is a medicine that will answer your questions at a certain stage. The answers are not served to you on a golden plate. The plant speaks to you in images, metaphors and synchronicities. The interpretation is intuitive. At some point you understand what the plant wants to tell you or why it does not speak to you. Whereby in my opinion it is wrong to think that it does not speak to you. Because even in the communication between two people, you usually get the most important answers when your counterpart is simply silent. As the saying goes, “silence is golden”. You have to be prepared. You have to be mentally and spiritually prepared and ready. A seed that is sown takes time to grow. You can’t add more water or pull on the first bud to speed up the growth process. It will grow and flourish in the time it takes to bring the flower to its full potential.

What did I take away from this weekend?

– The plant once again brought together exactly the people who needed to come together

– Don’t fixate on just one moment (drinking the medicine), but consciously pay attention to the before and after. Who do you meet, what do you feel, what conversations take place, what signs do you recognize?

– Don’t look forward too much to a moment in the hope of experiencing a certain thing. The moment will come and you will experience and learn something completely different than what you imagined. I am sure that I was not there for myself that weekend. I needed to be there for someone else to begin their journey.

– Live in the here and now. Because everything has its purpose in the here and now. Don’t be tempted by your ego. Your ego needs the past and the future to exist. But the future is only a projection of your mind and the time between now and the future wants to be filled. Filled with hopes, fears, concerns and imaginations.

– Notice yourself and find your inner center.

– The path of spirituality is to minimize the power and influence of your ego. I used to think you had to “kill” your ego. Now I think differently. I compare it to an airplane that needs two wings to fly. Recognize the pitfalls and cunning of your ego. Recognize it in order to control it. Because you need your ego and your being to stay on course.

– Be careful that in trying to control your (material) ego, you don’t fall into the trap of building a spiritual ego.

I feel tremendous gratitude to everyone I had the opportunity to meet during this magical weekend and am sure that our paths will cross someday, somewhere.

Many thanks to,

Christian, who brought this session to life
Aneta, the invisible hand
Mary, for your loving nature
Joel, who spoke to us with his soul
and to every single person who was part of this retreat. I was able to learn something from each one.

Field report from Ayla (June 2021): The team is simply magical!

After having participated twice in this wonderful, educational and enriching retreat, I would like to share my experiences with you here.
share my experiences with you.

The team that accompanies you on a weekend is simply magical – I immediately felt like I belonged, was accepted and felt like a member of the family,
alone with these dear souls I can recommend the experience to everyone to dive into this world.

Here again heartfelt thanks to you dear Ayahuasca team Germany ❤️.

For the location and the catering, however, there is not a whole 5 stars, but is of course my very personal and physical experience, for me it was in the
Retreat room too cramped and too dark I would have liked more space and light / candles and since I react to lenses, I have the second time with
Lunch myself, one always learns.

An experience after Aya includes, a great forgiveness process that lasted over two weeks. I can hardly describe it, every night I dream about
I dream of events and people that I have not thought about for decades and of the experiences I knew “nothing more”. Every morning I am
flashed and shocked to wake up what was/is still in me and every time I was a bit freer and healed. Likewise, my body told me
that we are not really in balance, I started again with sports, now consciously pay attention to my dopamine level and my grounding.
It’s heavenly how just a few little things can make life feel even more grandiose. And after all I have already tried on my way, I can only say that without
I can only say that without Aya I would not have made it so quickly, I personally can say that each time I was given years of development.

For many seekers of healing, enlightenment – this is a really easy and fast way to get there. Before I
I read many reports of this kind and I must confess that I could hardly believe it and I am so deeply grateful that I was able to have this experience.
this experience. And the wonderful team that made this possible in such a warm family atmosphere.

Here still a huge thanks to Joel, his music has touched me sooo deep in the heart. 🙏

Wish you equally wonderful inspirations and releases.

Feel loved.
Ayla ☀️❤️

Review by Patrick (June 2021): Always wonderful and full of miracles

Actually, I could write here about my experiences for days and write a novel about what a weekend does to you when you go on a retreat with Christian, Mary, Aneta and Joél.

But to keep it “short”, I’ll just write a few things. One gets a very warm and friendly welcome – not only from the team, but also from the other guests and healing seekers.

The cocoa ceremony is always very intense for me. I would never have believed that one can have small visions even here. But it is very heart-opening and calming with the wonderful music of Joél (who is not comparable with anything of this world if you give him an instrument).
In the meantime I have been there three times and each time it is a wonderful experience that wraps me in humility, gratitude and deep connection when you go through an Ayahuasca ceremony with great people. My visions were very profound, purposeful and I can say that I am a completely different person after the first retreat, as this experience was the most intense, which kept me very busy for days afterwards and still does. In fact, a lot has happened in my life since then without me really actively doing anything about it. An effect that lasts even longer and finds its way into everyday life, I would never have expected let alone thought possible. It is very fascinating what knots have been untied in my life.

During my second visit I could not really tune into the weekend myself due to private circumstances – the visions nevertheless did not fail to appear. But I loved the gratitude that was shown to me for experiences that other people had that I was able to help properly engage and tune into.
My third visit was 2 days ago now.

I had very clear visions, very clear messages, again a very intense weekend. Now the work starts and I have to implement it and integrate it into my personality to become a better person. Because that’s what it’s all about – developing yourself, healing yourself and being able to let go of old burdens to make room for new, beautiful things.
For me it started with a lot of surrendering, “spitting out” old experiences, being able to let go and be done with them, followed by clear and distinct visions.

Since my first retreat, my life has become calmer, I am more relaxed, and can see negative things from the past differently and thus evaluate them differently.

So for anyone who wants spiritual healing for themselves and perhaps to break old negative behavior patterns, I can only recommend to visit Christian and his great team and experience a weekend. It really is an experience and not something you “do once”.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has made it this far to read – thank you!

And I thank you for all the wonderful people I had the chance to meet on my retreats. Great friendships have been formed here that I wouldn’t want to miss.

Best regards,

Review by Christian (May 2021): I was immediately impressed by the open and warm manner of Christian and his team.

My whole body and mind was already preparing for the weekend in advance.

When it finally started on Friday, I was directly thrilled by the open and warm nature of Christian and his team. There was delicious vegan food and you could connect beautifully with the people from the group through meditation, sharing intensions and the group games. A great energy surrounded us and transformed the whole retreat into a magical place for spiritual and physical healing and development. It felt great to be surrounded by like-minded people.

The cacao ceremony on Friday night was very special to me. Never had I believed that cacao could have such a heart opening and spiritual effect.

Joel, the sound healer, together with Christian and his team created a great atmosphere and relaxation. Ayahuasca showed me that I am allowed to accept and embrace my inner demons. Childhood traumas that have unconsciously influenced my life may now be seen from a different perspective and also be accepted. I feel how little by little more and more balance and inner equilibrium prevail and how I am also allowed to build a deeper connection to myself and thus to other people with the help of the plant.

The exchange of experiences on Sunday was very exciting, as everyone spoke from their own perspective and presented their experiences. It was unbelievable how much power lies dormant in all of us and wants to be awakened.

I myself will be there again at the next appointment and dive deeper 🙂

I can wholeheartedly recommend the Ayahuasca Retreat to anyone who wants to connect with themselves more deeply and live more consciously.

Thank you to the whole Ayahuasca-in-Germany team.

Review from Tina (May 2021): The effect was powerful and gentle at the same time

The retreat with Ayahuasca in Deutschland was a wonderful experience. It started off on Friday evening with a round of introductions along with a tasty bowl of soup. Everyone was a bit nervous, and as a result, so was I. Soon after that, we went to the beautiful ceremony room where the cacao ceremony began. At first I found it hard to relax into the soothing effect of the cacao and Joel’s shamanic music. But at some point, I found myself crying. I was surprised, I didn’t think that cacoa and music could have such a strong effect on me. But the music is more than just music … it’s hard to describe. This shamanic music triggers and awakens all kinds of emotions. It really took me on a journey. As the music died down at the end of the night, I felt a deep sense of peace and happiness. I knew that some kind of healing had taken place.

The first thing I noticed on Saturday morrning was that the tension from Friday evening was completely gone. After breakfast, I went on a trip in the woods with a few others – the woods are a 1-minute walk from the house. That was fun. I also enjoyed the space in this lovely house – you can hang out in the tea room or in the garden or just in your room. As the sun started to set though, I knew that I needed to open my mind to the soon-to-be ayahuasca ceremony. I was a bit nervous. The ceremony started off with a powerful meditation. Then after we’d drunk our ayahuasca brew, the music slowly made its entrance. By then, my nervousness had disappeared. After having spent so much time with the people, I felt total trust in the guides and was enjoying the atmosphere with the other participants. This time it was easy for me to let myself dive into the music and let it take me wherever I needed to go. The effect of the sacred plant was powerful and gentle at the same time. About six hours
later, back in my room, I wrote down a few key words that came to mind after my experience with the sacred plant. This helped me to grasp the message. The message was clear, it was all about self-trust. I was so excited about this because this is a theme that I’ve been wrestling with for a long, long time.

Sunday morning came and after breakfast if was time for sharing. I so loved this final part of the retreat. As everyone told their story, the feeling of togetherness became stronger and stronger. After I’d told my story, I noticed a huge sense of transformation breaking through. And now, many weeks later, I can still feel the change in me and I am so grateful for this opportunity to heal.

Review from Christina (Mai 2021): I am looking forward to seeing one or the other participant again!

I was lucky enough to be part of a good group with a beautiful
warm energy. We all immediately understood each other and felt comfortable.
I think the youngest participant was 20 and the oldest over 70 – but I didn’t ask. It was nice to go into an exchange with like-minded people
(we meditated together and exchanged music etc.).
The response to the individual exercises and ceremonies varied from person to person. I liked the exercises in the garden, the music and the exchange with the participants best. I remember that on Sunday morning I was
a little disappointed, because I had imagined an enlightenment with dazzling colours
colours like on TV, but in the end I was just very tired and unfortunately had to throw up a lot. But in the morning when I meditated, I had the great
aha effect, a calmness, stillness and serenity. The effect is also rather subtle
and over a longer period of time. Afterwards I was able to free myself from a very
toxic parental home. (where I lacked the courage to do so all these years, because
I was afraid to be completely alone). The experience with the group taught me
that we are reflected in each other, that many people carry incredible burdens and that we can find healing in ourselves and in sharing
with others. I look forward to seeing one or two participants again.
And the most important: the plant has its own plan with you.


Review by Christian (May 2021): I was immediately impressed by the open and warm manner of Christian and his team.

My whole body and mind was already preparing for the weekend in advance.

When it finally started on Friday, I was directly thrilled by the open and warm nature of Christian and his team. There was delicious vegan food and you could connect beautifully with the people from the group through meditation, sharing intensions and the group games. A great energy surrounded us and transformed the whole retreat into a magical place for spiritual and physical healing and development. It felt great to be surrounded by like-minded people.

The cacao ceremony on Friday night was very special to me. Never had I believed that cacao could have such a heart opening and spiritual effect.

Joel, the sound healer, together with Christian and his team created a great atmosphere and relaxation. Ayahuasca showed me that I am allowed to accept and embrace my inner demons. Childhood traumas that have unconsciously influenced my life may now be seen from a different perspective and also be accepted. I feel how little by little more and more balance and inner equilibrium prevail and how I am also allowed to build a deeper connection to myself and thus to other people with the help of the plant.

The exchange of experiences on Sunday was very exciting, as everyone spoke from their own perspective and presented their experiences. It was unbelievable how much power lies dormant in all of us and wants to be awakened.

I myself will be there again at the next appointment and dive deeper 🙂

I can wholeheartedly recommend the Ayahuasca Retreat to anyone who wants to connect with themselves more deeply and live more consciously.

Thank you to the whole Ayahuasca-in-Germany team.

Review from Tina (May 2021): I was wonderfully received and accompanied in the ceremony with a lot of heart!

Hello dear Ayahuasca Germany Team,

I am super grateful that I was allowed to make my first Ayahuasca experience with you.

To be honest, I was very afraid of it and thought long and hard if it was really the right thing for me. I not only had a strong emotional healing, but was also wonderfully received by you and accompanied into the ceremony with a lot of heart. The team, the group and the environment were wonderful and very healing. That’s why I decided to go directly for the second ceremony. To work deeper and more intensively with my personal issues. I would recommend it to anyone who wants to grow personally, dissolve their traumas and old stopping beliefs.

Looking forward to seeing you again soon.

LG Tina

Review from Tina (May 2021): The effect was powerful and gentle at the same time.

The retreat with Ayahuasca-in-Germany was a wonderful experience. On Friday evening it started with a round of introductions and a plate of tasty soup. Everyone was a little nervous. Then we went to the ceremony room where the cacao ceremony started. At first I found it difficult to relax and listen to Joel’s shamanic music. But as time went by, I noticed that I started to cry. I was surprised about that, because I didn’t think that cocoa and music would have such a strong effect on me. The sounds took me on a special journey. After the ceremony, I felt deep peace and happiness. I knew that some kind of healing had taken place within me.

On Saturday morning, I noticed that my tension from Friday night had completely disappeared. After breakfast, I went for a walk in the forest with some others from the group. I enjoyed being in nature.

Just before sunset, I prepared my mind for the ayahuasca ceremony to begin. The ceremony began with a deep meditation. After we had our ayahuasca tea, Joel started to play his music. I completely got rid of my nervousness. I felt total trust in the Ayahuasca team and enjoyed the pleasant atmosphere with the other participants. This time it was easy for me to immerse myself in the music and let it take me away. The effect of the sacred steppe rue was powerful and gentle at the same time. When I got back to my room after the ceremony, I wrote down a few key words that came to mind after my experience with ayahuasca. This helped me to grasp the message of the medicinal plant. Everything was about self-confidence.

After breakfast on Sunday morning, it was time to share our experiences with ayahuasca as a group. I especially liked this last part of the retreat. As everyone shared their stories, the sense of community was strengthened. After I spoke of my experience, I felt a strong sense of transformation come over me. I still feel this transformation many weeks later. That is why I am so grateful to the Ayahuasca-in-Germany team for this opportunity to heal.

Review from Martin (March 2021): I’m looking forward to the new life

Hey friends, a lot has happened since the weekend.

I feel much freer in general and the blocks I wanted to remove are gone.

I regularly get up between 03:00 and 4:00 and celebrate my life.

It is wonderful that I now go through my day with such clarity, it feels like I am flowing.

It is exactly how I imagined it; and everything I saw during the ceremony is now coming into my life.

It’s fantastic, thank you to everyone for this unique experience, because I got to experience at least as much from each of you in terms of impressions ❤️

I am looking forward to the new life!


Review from Norbert (February 2021): I will be happy to come again!

My experience with Ayahuasca in Germany was a very positive one. From the beginning, the first contact was uncomplicated and pleasant. It all started with off with really friendly and uncomplicated email and phoning contact. I was especially pleased with how spontaneously I was able to participate. As for the journey, we were kindly picked up from the train station and even got a lift back at the end of the retreat. Upon entering the house, I felt an immediate and harmonious atmosphere – and during the introductions, everyone managed to open up about a lot about themselves, without putting up a façade. This created a lot of trust between the group from the very start, and I sensed that I had met a good group. I got a very nice, friendly and attentive impression from the team from the get-go.

The first evening alone was an experience, with the cocoa ceremony, especially with the combination of singing bowls therapy and Joel’s “sea of sound”. The whole thing was so relaxing, it completely took me away from my day-to-day life. I experienced a rarely felt sense of calmness.

The actual Ayahuasca ceremony took place on the second day. In preparation we did yoga, which relaxed the body and mind, followed by a long meditation. Then in the evening we drank the plant medicine and set out on our journey. Since this part is very personal and a highly individual experience, all I will say is you have to simply soak it up and live in the experience. Throughout the night, we were guided, once again, by a very intensive “sea of sound”. The music was pleasantly perceptible and it made the silences in between feel very “loud”. What an experience.

The following morning, we shared our experiences with each other and once again it was lovely how openly everyone described theirs. All in all, I must say, it was an outstanding team, a great group and an intensive experience. I will happily be coming back when the plant calls me. A big thank you to everyone involved!

Experience from Aneta (October 2020): Experience a strong energy with wonderful people

I had heard a lot about plant healing methods over a long period of time, and was sceptical as to whether I really wanted to try it or not. Some psychedelics are portrayed and mystified as a drug. After the experience with the plant, I know that it is not the case.

Since I was feeling “stuck” in the last while, I decided to attend a ceremony with Syrian rue. It’s actually very difficult to convey this experience in words, and it’s definitely nothing to be scared of. Each person makes their own journey with the plant, so any description of the experience itself is superfluous here.

The ceremony itself was wonderfully organized. Each person was given a mattress, a yoga pillow, a pillow and a blanket.

Joel, the musical accompanist, enchanted everyone with his music and sometimes I wasn’t sure whether it was his music or the plant that was working. With his music, the journey moves on another level.

The cacao ceremony was a heart-opening experience, also accompanied by live music from Joel.

The energy was beautiful, along with wonderful fellow participants and a loving team in the comfortable retreat house.

Tanja’s experience with ayahuasca as a sensitive person (January 2021)

Everyone has an event, at some point in their life, that can barely be dealt with on their own. As is usually the case, we suppress our pain, try to forget our memories. If the pain is not dealt with, it will accompany us for our life. Everyone can decide whether they want to change their life and experience more joy. It was by chance that I took part in an ayahuasca ceremony for the first time in my life. Since I had little information about it, I read more about Ayahuasca’s effects and side effects. As well as that, before, during and after the ceremonies, Christian’s team was always there for any questions we had. Already on the first evening after getting to know each other, there was this harmonious, peaceful atmosphere. This peaceful mood has heightened tremendously by the cocoa ceremony. Loving people, aromatic and warm cocoa along with the unforgettable and deeply touching sounds of Joel’s music put me in a world full of peace with myself and the environment. It was really nice to spend the time with the group afterwards. This time passed by in a flash. On the second night, I was very nervous because I didn’t know how I would react after Ayahuasca. The whole team, and other participants, calmed me down and took me under their wing. Ayahuasca did not take effect straight away for me, but instead, it affected me for a longer period afterwards. I cried almost every day, for no reason, for about two weeks after that. Everything that I had been suppressing came up. My perception was very sharpened – especially auditory and gustatory senses, which are still much stronger today than ever before. I used to drink a lot of coffee and I liked wine and champagne. After the retreat, I can only drink one cup of coffee a day and hardly any alcoholic beverages because I just don’t like them anymore. Because I am sensitive, I was sometimes prone to mild depression. After the ayahuasca ceremony, they are gone for good. Many thanks to the team and all the participants! It was such fun! I think everyone has to voluntarily make the decision and be aware of all possible effects, knowing that Ayahuasca is the helper and each of us is the creator. It is an opportunity to live life from a different perspective. The decisive factor is our will to finally come to terms with negative experiences and to start enjoying life.

Review from Anna (October 2020): My experience was something very special

I would like to thank you – Ayahuasca in Germany – from the bottom of my heart. I felt lovingly cared for by Christian’s wonderful and competent team, throughout the whole weekend and I can only recommend that you take part. Both ceremonies were incredibly magical! During the cacao ceremony I was able to fully connect with the power of my heart and felt incredible connection and love. I already had previous experience with Ayahuasca, but this special second ceremony really touched and transformed me, not least through the enchanting and truly healing sounds of the sound healer Joel. I recommend attending the retreat to anyone interested in personal development and spiritual growth. Thank you Ayahuasca in Germany and thank you Christian for creating this place of healing and transformation!

Lorena and her unique experience with Ayahuasca in Germany (October 2020)

The weekend in St. Augustin was very nice. I’d already had experience with Ayahuasca, but the ceremony in Bonn was very special. Joel and Gabriela accompanied us both nights with live music. The music was very touching and created a special atmosphere. This deepened my experience. The team was very hospitable and really welcomed and supported me. The other participants were very open and friendly. The group was made up of participants from many different backgrounds who complemented each other well. I would love to see everyone again! I’m so excited about the project that I decided to get involved and support it in the future. I am pleased that Christian makes all of this possible. Once again, a big thank you to Christian, who created this beautiful place.

Daniel’s experience with ayahuasca (October 2020): “I was totally impressed!”

My experiences in October 2020 with Ayahuasca in Germany were very positive. After dealing with a very painful divorce over the past few years, I had turned to various spiritual traditions. I did a Vipassana meditation retreat, attended yoga classes, and since then, very different and very interesting books have found their way into my hands. After seeing the documentary “Ayahuasca – Vine of the Soul” on YouTube, it was clear to me that I wanted to try ayahuasca. I was delighted to find out that it was on offer in Germany.

For me, however, I have to say that the really great thing about the weekend was, above all, the experience with the group. At first, I was more concerned about what kind of people would turn up and hoped not to end up with any “freaks” or weird people. The house in Bonn / Siegburg is a bit out of the way, and I had my own fears about that. The first person I came across was a psychologist, and so as an academic, I was glad not to be alone anymore. It turned out that the group was very mixed, but also fit together very well. The introduction talk with the group was one of the highlights of what I have ever experienced so far, in terms of an honest psychological-spiritual exchange. The introductory talk was a bit like group therapy, where each participant briefly, but sincerely, gave their reasons for coming. Almost all the participants shared the tensions / conflicts in their lives very openly, sometimes profoundly and sometimes very much emotionally. Many cited the loss of zest for life as one reason, others spoke about spirals of negative beliefs and others mentioned their stressful family relationships. From then on, it was clear that it would not only be interesting, but also a very serious experience.

After dinner, everyone got ready for the cacao ceremony, the test run so to speak, for the following night, the Ayahuasca night. I went to my room to meditate for an hour before the ceremony, the thoughts of the cacao ceremony were “sweet” compared to the thoughts of the great Syrian rue. When I got to the ceremony room, most of participants had found their places and I looked for mine. The tension slowly started to rise. When I finally held the steaming cup in my hand, which smelled intensely of a raw cacao mass, I thought of the advice from my friend from Hamburg, who grows medicinal herbs himself, and who advised me to thank the plant first for everything it would give me before enjoying it myself. After drinking the first cup, I was overwhelmed by a deep sense of gratitude. I immediately began to cry, as I often do before or during meditation, as if to empty myself. I thought about my childhood and youth and how happy it was and how grateful I am to have had such a beautiful life. In any case, it was a new or long-forgotten experience for me to address my past so positively without any reservation. To appreciate everything that had been. Just to be able to lie here, in the indescribable luxury of such a secure self-discovery experience. The rest of the night was just a pleasant bath of emotions: warm and dark red, in the candlelight, along with the really wonderful South American, live music from Joel, who accompanied and guided me on the trip.

On Saturday I withdrew a little and caught up on some sleep. On the one hand from the cocoa night, on the other hand from the weeks before, which were very stressful and demanding. In the meantime, the group went for a walk in the woods. That evening we sat together again, in joyful anticipation of the evening. There was tension in the air, and at the same time, it felt as if we had all come together, and the resistance that was noticeable in many at the beginning, was now gone. While everyone was holding their paper cups (which were only a third full) filled with a black aromatic liquid, I once again thanked the plant for everything it had already had already done for me. To my surprise, the night passed relatively uneventfuly. After an hour, my body slowly began to get too warm and to give way to a flowing feeling. I leaned back and listened to the very melodic and sensual music from Joel that sometimes touched me and sometimes just enveloped me. While still focusing on the feeling of gratitude, a feeling of security arose. Most of the people in the room started throwing up, and some started crawling towards the toilet. I just lay there thinking how good I have it. Of course there had been a few difficulties in my life. In the last year alone, I remembered the number of times I’d had crying fits after my wife had left me – even if I somehow sensed that she had been right.

My stomach felt wonderful and I could feel Ayahuasca flow warmly and steadily out of the stomach into my whole body, doing a deep cleanse. I felt totally relieved. Apparently I wasn’t as fragile as I thought I was. You are strong, Ayahuasca seemed to whisper to me, and you can be even more confident. I was totally thrilled. It is said that Ayahuasca tells everyone what they need to know, and now it was telling me that I can trust in my strength. And I thought to myself how true, how often I have withdrawn myself and felt inhibited, so as not to stand there like a show-off or a swanker, or to make sure not to stand on the feet of others, those that are slower or even more inhibited. I spent the rest of the night in a pleasant high, a self-intoxication maybe, that was good for me. The night seemed to remind me that I am good the way I am and that I can trust myself a lot more. In the weeks after the retreat, a few things also happened and a lot has dissolved. To describe that would, however, go beyond this experience report.

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